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Sweet Dreams


So this has been a pretty incredible week.  Lots going on in my life.  Learning about stolen work and wrapping my head around the fact that people don’t always tell the truth has been daunting.  Yeah I know I’m naive right? 

So this morning when I woke up I remembered my dream.  I thought I’d share here so you can have a look at what goes on in my mind.  Buckle up. ;)




NOTE:  The following is a dream I had.  It is not intended to be taken literally or have any basis in fact.

My dream started out with hubby and I were at a party.  Tim Gunn, from Project Runway,  came in and told me that he had to introduce me to the new lead singer of Journey.  The guy really wanted to meet me.  I took Tim’s hand and we headed over to a big table with tons of people around it.  The new lead singer stood up and held out his hand to shake mine.  It was actually Dave Navarro, musician and a judge on Ink Master.
Dave wanted me to make him something, I cannot recall if it was jewelry or a costume out of these little tiny circles.  They were like the hole-punch you use for making charms.  So I’m trying to put these little circles together in this room that changed from the bar/party room to a hotel room.  Dave is coming out of the shower yelling for his costume/jewelry which I haven’t finished yet.  I start to panic and all of a sudden I’m now in my grandmother’s house in front of the stove cooking hamburgers.

The stove is loaded with hamburgers.  There is so much meat on the grill I start to freak out because it’s falling off the edges.  (This is really strange because I’m a vegetarian)  I see my extended family sitting around the table wanting me to finish the burgers.  Then I hear my grandmother calling me from the living room.  I come into the living room and she’s laying on the couch asking me to get her some ice cream.  I said, Grandma why are you here?  She said because I want some ice cream.  I said, but you’re dead.  She said, get me some ice cream, I want vanilla.  I run to the kitchen to get ice cream.  I look in the freezer and there are tons and tons of little tiny yogurts.  I thought, why did my sister put the freaking yogurt in the freezer, this isn't where it goes. 

I dig and dig and only see flavors like Strawberry, Boston Cream Pie and so on.  No Vanilla.  I go back and I say Grandma there’s no vanilla.  She said, it’s in there.  Go find it.   I go back and my family is at the table asking for the burgers, which are now burning on the stove.  I start unloading the burgers and one of my uncles says, did you get Mama her ice cream.  I start to cry and yell, there’s no ice cream!  There’s only yogurt! Why don’t you guys understand??  He says again, you need to get her the ice cream.  I said, she shouldn't be here.  She’s dead.  Don’t you get it, she’s dead and I start to cry. "She's DEAD" I screamed, "And there's NO ICE CREAM!"
I turn to the stove and wake up.


That is just a little glimpse of what goes on in my brain.  I really like both Tim Gunn & Dave Navarro.  Project Runway and Ink Master are two of my favorite shows.

I’ll need to sit down and review that it all means.  I’m not really sure on the whole thing.  I welcome your input.

Happy Sunday
Namaste & Blessed Be
Sosanna

)O(

Pagan Blog Project - Z is for Zoomancy




For returning visitors to my blog you all know that I am extremely interested in divination in one form or another.  I've studied all types of scrying.   I've researched the tarot and dream interpretation.   I really believe that I do have some connection to “seeing the future”.  There are times I’ll dream what hubby is dreaming or I’ll know someone is going to call before they call.

Sort of an intuition if you will.  I have a tendency to experience insomnia when my kid does.  I do believe that in some way, I know when things are happening.  Earlier this month for example hubby and I were in Wilson at the Harris Teeter and I looked at him and said, someone is talking about me.  A few minutes later we get a message from my uncle about a stove he wants to give us.


Those little things help me know that I am indeed connected to a spiritual energy.  With my connection to animals I was really surprised that I hadn't heard about Zoomancy until I was researching a “Z” word for the Pagan Blog Project 2012.


Checking out the website Occultopedia, I found some really awesome info on Zoomancy.  For instance many cultures around the world practiced one form of Zoomancy or another.  Babylonians studied sleeping oxen’s reaction to having water tossed on them.  Hittites watched eels and Etruscans watched the movements of hens and roosters.



As I was reading this article as soon as I read that in medieval times howling of dogs was said to mean death was coming I immediately thought of Hecate.  Howling of dogs is said to signal her presence and as we all know she is the Goddess of the Magic and Necromancy.  We know that she stands at the crossroads with the keys to guide newly departed souls to the next realm.

This came full circle for me because last night I went to the hospital to visit my grandma of 97 years.  She’s frail and tired looking.  Her eyes, though filled with youth are shown with the weight of a long long life.  She talked to me going back and forth from present to past about farming and her beloved husband. 


Photo Credit - Renee Olson

She said it was foretold that if your husband builds you a house, he will only live six years following.  That’s what happened to her.  Her husband passed away at 57.  I never met him.  He died well before I was born.  She told me last night that it was a long time ago.  I could see the sadness come over her face.  She is ready I believe.  I made peace with myself as I left the hospital.  She’s looking now, standing at the crossroads waiting for Hecate to arrive.  She wants to move on and be with her beloved Joe.  I know he’s there.  In her mind her peace will come when they are together again.  She has lived a long full life.  She’s raised ten children alone and even managed to end up raising two grandchildren as well.  She is our matriarch and when she is gone I believe our family will finally part ways.

Photo Credit - Renee Olson

 
She taught me about wives tales and animals.  My first salt was tossed over my shoulder at her direction.  She told me about Joe coming to visit her at the end of her bed the night he passed and I've always believed that on her last night, she will come to let me know as well.  I believe my since of responsibility, understanding, fairness and my gift of sight comes from her.  I will miss her dearly.

Photo Credit - Nadine Going


I still continue to find my divination source.  I will certainly look more into the art of Zoomancy.  With all the animals I have around me, perhaps this is my calling.

Namaste & Blessed Be
Sosanna
)O(

You, Me & Religion Interview

Just wanted to share my interview with the website "You, Me & Religion" Interview.

You can find it here.

I was very excited back in March when I got an email asking me to participate in this web site. A lot has changed in my life since then. As many of you know we no longer breed Chihauhaus and Hubby is looking to get back into the corporate world.

He's been applying for jobs all over the US but something interesting happened today. Today was my Grandmother's 96th birthday. She pretty much raised me until I was 5 or 6. She was talking to me today and I couldn't hear her so I leaned in to listen. She said, Did he find a job? I said, no grandma not yet. She reached out and grabbed my arm and said "I don't want you'all to move". I nearly cried.


Happy Birthday Grandma









So today, has been a big day. I sold four of my Pagan Wreaths that can now be found at Silver Star's in Fayetteville. I was published on You, Me & Religion and I found out just how very important I am to a little ole 96 year old lady in Hood Swamp NC.

It's so nice to be loved.

Please take a moment and tell those in your life how much they mean to you.


Namaste & Blessed Be

Sosanna
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