Over the last few months I've been re-evaluating how I interact with
people online and how much energy I allow myself to expend on different
endeavors. As well as a full time job
and running a business I was also working on a couple of different blog
projects and a few special events online.
I also have several vending events over the last few months and doing
some fostering.
I have been totally drained of all my energy. I've decided to cut back on a few things and
expand in a few other areas. Recently I
was fostering a litter of kittens who brought a very serious disease into the
house. I’m on quarantine for a few
months so I won’t be doing that for a while.
I've also decided that I cannot change the world. I cannot help everyone and there are only two
things I can control in this world. What
I say and what I do. So I plan to try to
spend more time focusing on those things.
When people say things, write things, do things, I have to accept that I
cannot do anything about it. I cannot
change it. It is not on me. I have to accept that I cannot judge myself
harshly for believing people. I am a
trusting person by nature. I am a giving
person by nature and sadly that makes me a pretty gullible person at
times. I've decided that I’d rather be
gullible, than jaded so barring any directly obvious statements to the contrary
I will err on the side of innocence and assume that the actions of others are
not intended to be or interpreted as an attack.
I've also decided to work on my spiritual health. I've found myself over the last few months
asking questions of other regarding their spiritual practices and beliefs. I've spoken out loud of my concern for my
path and if indeed, I am on the correct one.
This past weekend I had several dreams helping me find my
direction. I've started that journey by
ordering a few books. Over the next six
months to a year, I plan to start going through each of the books and reporting
on them here as if they were assignments in classroom. I’m starting with Magic in the Ancient World
by Fritz Graf.
My goal is to ultimately
complete the reading requirements and apply to become a Torchbearer for the Covenant of Hekate. If
I can stay focused I plan to cover at least 2 more books in addition to Hekate Liminal Rites &
Hekate Her Sacred Fires. I have ordered Hekate Soteira & Arcana Mundi. I also have The Temple of Hekate on
e-book so I’m pretty much booked (pun intended) for a while!
I’m hoping that my followers here will find the information
interesting and feel free to contribute comments to the self-discovery I hope
to accomplish on this journey. Some may
see my participation in groups and discussions wane as I work toward this new
goal.
May her mysteries be revealed in your dreams.
Sosanna
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